Attempt to interpret a sentence.

„If there is somewhere a sky, my mother will have one for herself alone“
And also this translation is not right?
How many sentences there are, however, which should state the opposite:
"Please, my mother allows to not only be in heaven level, for it I have loved them too much!"?
Is it that what YOU think?
Also I have loved my mother
but in other, often abusive kind.
When I had to watch, that itself her life
to the end leant towards,
if my heart was difficult like lead.
When I came again
if the sky had already got a new angel in addition.
What do I do?
Yes, in thoughts I speak with him, my guardian angel:
"Announce what can I do to live your wishes and longings to an end?"
The soul of my mother gives reassuring thoughts to me (believe it or do not believe it!):
"If you mean, it feels well what you do,
do it further,
if you mean, it must change what,
change it."
Now I wished, she would become from there where she is,
the same sky see which also I see...