Meike Schrut
Broken dreams (11)
Scene WHERE - EXACTLY WHERE - TIME OF DAY
50 INSIDE - FLAT OF MARIANNE - MEET
THE SECOND NARRATOR
„Maybe it is the number 50 that I may appear here, worth readership.
Possibly, however, it is only one pretty round number. My
predecessor was not dismissed, at given time he will get opportunity to rise again in the
history. IT is such a word, as if there may be no female narrator. For it there will be the
female voice from him On the other side, no reason for the panic, because how already
magnificent Edgar Allan Poe said:
„Is everything not what we see and seem, only one dream within a dream?
One can express it also with the words of another man:
„Any scene reminds always in a little bit and was there already once.“
Maybe the voice does not come also really from On the other side, in any case, it
would be to be heard in a film: awfully, sadly, daringly, however, also cheeky and
audaciously, impertinently, the whole palette of the human emotions. Not enough
action? For the people who need dead people also in a book on every 4th side these
Scenen are nothing, there will be dialogues about which one can think, but does not
have to go. However, one may accept emotions. The stolen sentence could have been
said by any other person, really he comes from a conversation with an actor who must
not write his screenplay scenes to himself, or does he do this occasionally, nevertheless?
This screenplay history - the screenplay exists of scenes which can be changed over
and over again, but then only by the author themselves. And every person is his own
director, cameraman / Mrs. and scriptwriter, one writes the history of his own life
himself. There remains put there whether there could be the film which the acting people
want to fancy spiritually slowly and if it only is first to help RF.
The author Poe may have suffered in his real life so that he might fancy even creepy
stories and he would be able to see the film-maker today over the shoulder, he would
maybe say: “Must one get all grief which seems in books also presented?“
Why about 2022. Removed far enough from the reality and also enough distance to that
man over whom Marianne just broods, full doubts, some fear, however, rather also
surprise. And just: 20 years after the original film "Spider" . Though Marianne and RF
joke, but of course not in pejorative way. RF was real also 60 years, however, could
change externally, real people get at most the chance to become immortal by her art.
And Ralph Fiennes is still real in 2022 if he also does not so come along simply as
fictitiously described.“
2 days after the entertainment between Marianne and RF there rings the doorbell.
Though the intention has to go itself for Marianne, RF is quicker, opens and hardly
trusts to his eyes: he is confronted himself. Of course nonsense, but when he saw few
days ago in the mirror, his face, up to the eyes was almost precisely just exactly.
Dumbfounded he asks the visitor in, one cannot leave Ralph Fiennes outdoors,
moreover, it has started to rain. Early in the morning. 9 o'clock is the suitable time to
have breakfast and RF automatically lays the table for the guest who finds this anyhow
amusing: he said nothing, expressed no wish, however is greeted.
The greeting precipitates a little bit economically, because of the surprise. When the
persons present have calmed down something, Marianne RF on the hall asks.
51 INSIDE - HALL in Mariannes flat - MEET
RF
(beside oneself)
„I have always known that you are just on it like Madleine: yesterday spiritually inclined,
has called him and has asked sometimes, so besides, for his visit?“
MARIANNE
(laughing)
„If I never ventured, he must get wind have from our plans, no notion as he has made
this, but we do not want to give him the feeling, we would talk behind his back, he has
experienced long enough with other opportunities.“
52 INSIDE - SITTING ROOM of Marianne - MEET
Ralph Fiennes feels of course the light strain which lies about the small society, he does
not invite himself also so often somewhere, but he had promised Marianne this visit
already since some time, became time that he redeems this promise.
RF also feels the look of the just arrived.
RF `s voice off-screen
„Would like to be able to guess too with pleasure your thoughts, my appearance must
not be disagreeable to me, but now so probably I also do not feel.“
RF looks something irritated to Madleine which has won her usual cheerfulness again
and looks at the come curiously, she does not fix him, she answers his open look which
you trust and seem, hence, pleasant.
Madleine `s voice off-screen
„Possibly it was that what she has at least anticipated: if he appeared somewhere, it was
difficult to close mind to his at first open friendly kind, the close came much later and
has some reasons.“
Fiennes` voice off-screen
„If my day is not maybe today, she should have asked whether it is right to her that I
come. I would virtually meet at the table - only this is younger the other - this is
sometimes what completely new and probably unique. Mariannes friend possibly,
because her brother might be possibly at my age.“
MARIANNE
(uncertainly)
„If now I may already answer the not put question: no, RF is my brother, I could not
recognise him himself immediately. And before you think, I joke, unfortunately, this is
no joke, can also explain nobody to me like this it happened.“
RALPH
(amazes)
„Must make him, nevertheless, contented, or?“
The embarrassed silence was not necessarily that what the actor had expected.
Madleine
(quiet)
„You will not hold it for possible, honoured master, but he envies you because he too
often feels the disadvantages internally.“
Ralph Fiennes had the master studiously in such a way leave, a look which one could
call equivocal hung up.
Ralph
(affected)
„I am sorry, RF, did not want to come close to you to what has happened, one would
call extraordinary, rather not than tragically.“
His very quiet melodic voice which he had consciously held back and had formed
not so hard as on the stage caused that Marianne leant calmly to the back and also
noted that the other were also better substantially. Strangely how he knew again how to
pull listener in his spell and in Madleine the words of HER reverberated that she held
him for a magician of the words and moods who knew to master every situation
apparently.
Ralph got on at this moment rather not than magician or master. If a man so dissatisfied
with his new constitution came along, it required certainly more than one explanation,
but it did not lie to him to question any person directly. Answers can be found, sooner
or later, whether by chance or the need to divide something with to him.
NARRATOR
„Marianne still heard out: an indiscernible shivering in his voice which could not be noted
from other because it was known only to her. He did not show up in his heart if he did
not hold it for right. He played the other to the very sure people, very well, but just this
time not perfectly, so he was tired, too tiredly in addition. Marianne had already
exhausted him and had perceived tiredly when he visited them alone, no more advice
knew. The more he had opened to her, the more she saw behind his facade from
calmness, deliberate coarseness if one irritated him. He had to give no cheeky sayings
to the best in her present. She cleared the throat, " I am sorry" this , yes, it was real,
but to her it was disagreeable and she not even knew which is why. Though Ralph
Fiennes was an extremely good actor, but she had been able to see the vulnerable
person in him only few times very clear: on a photo of 2008 and at few personal
meetings.“
Marianne
(hoarse)
„I anticipate, why you have gone past today, Ralph. So.“
And she passed to him the screenplay which he did not want to hold though at all in the
hands, but he looked at them a little bit pinched, it took with one hand with the others
he stroked to her softly a strand from the face.
Ralph `s voice off-screen
„She might be more or less the only woman who had talked to me in the conscience
with the sentence if I want to have my life well-balanced, I must already jump about my
shade and ignore sometimes the work. Fear? I have that
in her eyes never seen if I her met and spoke. She smiled at me strangely when I said, I
would still have to bring urgently what to an end, almost always I accepted the next
thing immediately. I had promised only to her to spare me and till present has not
created.
Only because of her I am not able on too many days to see laxly in the mirror how
many person have I disappointed then else so accidentally?“
Marianne looked at him also this time anxiously, asked him for a conversation less than
4 eyes, he nodded.
They stepped on the balcony, the sun seemed again and so coldly it was not.
53 OUTSIDE BALCONY of Mariannes flat - MEET
MARIANNE
(urgently)
„If it did not want to say you before other, you look too tired to me, as if you have
hardly slept.“
RALPH
(smiling)
„Would be a miracle if this had escaped you, lets me read some moments in the
screenplay?“
Marianne
(happily)
„You know which you must catch up from no one a permission, they give them to you
before.“
Ralph
(puts out of tune)
„Do not start please with such a nonsense.
A person whom one it decreases to ask in whom one gives him before what he needs
what is in your eyes worth?“
Marianne
(perplexes)
„You know exactly what you worth is.“
Ralph
(annoys)
„I have not meant this and you also know it.“
Marianne tried to his look to stand firm what was not easy for her. She gave fast that,
nevertheless, for her was cold, besides, she sweated visibly more. Cold sweat
ran down to her the back, so were 2 states all at once, a state too much.
They further talked in the sitting room from which the other people had gone away as if
these anticipated that Marianne with him alone wanted to talk.
54 INSIDE - SITTING ROOM OF MARIANNE - DAY
RALPH
(warily)
„I did not want to start you, you look timid something. If you freeze, one can remedy
that....“
Ralph `s voice off-screen
„If was privately the first time that I could frighten you, should have dressed a little more
warmly, my caring cat. Though do not say that I should lie down something because
you know, I make all decisions myself, but would have taken amiss I of it you also not.“
Marianne saved himself an answer, she allowed that he reached for a cover and rubbed
them warmly.
Marianne `s voice off-screen
„ And how do I come out now of this number? He still rubs to me the skin under it.“
Of course she dealt doubt, just now the wrong when it took the cover, nevertheless, still
from the hand from him and kissed him carefully, besides, now, nevertheless, before
fear closed the eyes.
NARRATOR
„On her lips the beguiling aroma of whole East seemed to be united. Amazedly he pulled
them though at himself, however, could not answer the kiss straight away. She was
about 20 years younger than he. WHOM she had internally before himself, the „English
patients“, duke from "the duchess“, the pitiful "spider", everybody together and still
some more of the figures to which he had breathed life or only him who was privately
possibly in such a way, as she did not fancy him: just no more quite young, but also not
violently and rather in such a way as he had himself with pleasure in the „everlasting
gardener„ in recollection: absolutely caring around the woman troubles whom he tried
to love.“
Ralph
(seriously)
„What or do whom you see, actually, in me?“
Marianne
(hesitantly)
„So that I understand this properly: now you cannot answer this harmless kiss with
which I wanted to ask you, actually, for forgiveness, yes, to me was not just cold. In
any case not only, rather hotly and coldly at the same time because I did not want to
annoy you. I try you to shorter step to move because I love you, you not even notice it
and play too well the distrustful. Oh rather: you have to play him not at all urgently, you
are also distrustful towards me, quite "great" thing.“
NARRATOR
„Marianne had considered of course and really had said the truth. For them he was level
not the figure he in each case had to play. To her the too employed man had become
too important when she could allow that he was directed bit by bit to reason and he
was the person whom she wanted to have for the rest of her days beside herself. The
everlasting mistrust had taken note of them with big regret and had resigned itself,
actually, to the fact that to him her present had to make no difference quite. She wanted
to free herself of him because you became conscious own gleaming before tears eyes
and she herself hated this small weakness in herself. Softly he put them on the Coatch,
sat down beside her and laid his slender hand on theirs. Why to him the duke from "the
duchess“ came so suddenly to the sense, he not even knew it. In the film one still left
and fetch back „the piece once again“, this moment from which one anticipated that
one had committed a mistake. And ordinarily he did not become engrossed behind in
any role, around himself with the figure which he had played to get, so to speak, advice,
so with itself. Mariann waited patiently as if it anticipated that it had met him just at a
very sensitive place. He cannot be held with pleasure the mirror before."
Ralph
(uncertainly)
„Forgive if I must take first of all, so to speak, a breath. Of course I accept your excuse,
no problem. The definition of love should not really be this what I had to give as duke in
"the duchess“ from myself, this was: in the kind in which I understand love would be too
cheap to you and not was also honest towards you. I am no one which can be easily
persuaded, for it I have already experienced too much strange and then to him one also
has fast the little coat with label „I love you“ around hung Before what I would be
afraid - if I admitted the word fear in my usage privately and the word is quite
embarrassing enough for me, then before it: somebody could suffocate me emotionally
before nothing but „you must be every day with me and I have no understanding for....“
Ralph `s voice off-screen
„I would stalk once so around with words to believe hardly. She must think... Yes what
curses then.... What she could think.“
Ralph
(halting)
„Can I expect from you that you take my quite bad habits calmly there and not even
complain if I must be sometimes for myself?“
Marianne
(mockingly)
„Then we are too unlike to each other not all. What do I have from a man who almost
dies from boredom, me wants to control and, for the rest, can be maybe not at all loyal?“
Ralph
(teasing)
„I hope, you would not smell an affair with every female fan, should give really still very
young women who have forgotten apparently which passes the time, also for me.“
She looked at him leniently...
NARRATOR
„What one could wish both people splendidly. Marianne will want to get to know him
maybe better or also not, will possibly touch down different-coloured instead of the
rose glasses, but the future can foresee Marianne only in the fictive history with all the
other people on her side whether there now real people were indicated or not.... But at
this point it becomes a time for my predecessor who was already bored and wanted to
forbid to me more than once the word. And again would be mentioned, what Richard
Burton when author about said in the „fright of the Medusa“: „I am not responsibly for
what my figures say.“ There has been a dialogue in addition, he is also insignificant here,
however.
55 Two days ago...
INSIDE - FLAT of RF - MEET
THE FIRST NARRATOR
"Thank me very much for the vacation, but now it can go on with me.
Ralph and Marianne have been occupied so totally with himself that the screenplay
questions also came in 2 days something for succumbing. Then Marianne occurred
what she had still read in the screenplay."
Marianne `s voice off-screen
„Madleine `see the dead friend who delivered the sketches which one can with difficulty
remove from the screenplay, without Ralph it would get. But now just they are just
determined not for his eyes. From which year were the sketches? In 2005? I have also
forgotten, since when Madleine completely cleverly the manner of writing of HER
accepted, the exact day of the accident should fall absolutely under the table and I also
anticipate why.“
Madleine which could stay with RF also like Ralph with Marianne in the gigantic flat of
RF, without they disturbed each other, was in one of the sitting rooms and looked at
Marianne questioningly.
Madleine
(surprises)
„Has been tremendously competent that you have already devoured the screenplay, it
reads a little bit hard, or?“
Marianne
(helplessly)
„Try you, Ralph - when he also liked to read the book what I go out from - to
explain, why we the first 10 sides and all this of what SHE informed you alone
apparently and what hides in indications guaranteed still somewhere are to be found,
had to remove. It becomes the remarks „to spare you“ or „to make to you right now
the life not hard“ with one of his different kinds ignore to smile and want to take the
book so as it was intended originally: as a declaration of love for RF or for whom then
still everything.? We cannot steal the sides, but then he might not read the whole book
what act.“
The women had not noted that Ralph could listen to fairly long time because he
searched by chance what in the space.
Ralph
(curiously)
„Right now I do not suppose that your both women really these sides wanted to
distinguish out and had said me: „yes, this also has before we it took in hand, thus
looked.“ Astonishingly how many people underestimate me. Do you believe, I would
like to be packed into cotton, Marianne?“
Marianne heard very well an offended undertone out and passed the unscathed
screenplay with him to him as she found, to superfluous sides before the real action.
Ralph made a theatrical bow to her to hide his annoyance, the book had a look first of
all thus: on an average from the width and if it was rather on an average from the
contents, if he otherwise used his time.
He lay down comfortably, half he sat, half he lay on the Coatch like on occasion if he
wanted to make the first thoughts to himself.
Ralph `s voice off-screen
„Does not understand the whole excitement of the girls, RF transmitted it, so he has read
it, nevertheless, also completely or possibly not?“
Voice of the writer of the screenplay off-screen
„Then you can get dear Madleine, I know that you wanted to have only the incomplete
idea with some vague indications and notes also the backgrounds, maybe you can start
with the tips „to photo from.... from the year.... “what, I do not leave you with pleasure
in the unclear.“
NARRATOR
„Ordinarily read Ralph personal notes - what just belonged to no ready written work -
either never or if, then with greatest care and thoughtfulness before the sender. The time
remained rare to him to see this by, even if there an idea was included which he had not
known thus.“
Voice of the writer of the screenplay off-screen
„I know that the person who should start what sometime with my stuff can understand
impossibly how much time has passed, from the first sentence up to the last. Has written
as a young girl Gijom and M., then this is then also with with, in addition, however,
later. I have not produced the photos of course myself, once again the worldwide net
was the best counsellor. I slowly curse the ominous day in which I discovered exactly
that male face which nights sleepless me had prepared.Ich annoyed me about a certain
sentence of that man who had never to write apparently a line to any screenplay himself.
And the story with the magic mirror which takes parts of the man with itself whom I I
pretended to love also began when I just saw the photo. Dealt to you earlier exact
notes about the web page hand over, superfluously the 2nd time. Your time must be
also limited with all great experiences, wished, I could be present the last time with such
a trip. Why the last time? Now, my worth doctor advised me one of the rotten
therapies from which I would never recover where now my lifetime is limited, I write
every remaining minute or almost. Look at these lines as communications from On the
other side if you may. You know me or knew me: the godfather death comes with me
on a donkey ridden towards in the form of a very dear actor whom I also revered.
Yes, admiration is also the suitable word for the man whose name I circumscribe who
also showed the other, to the types without name. If the story found terribly boringly
and if one is sorry the villain again, the role was probably a wrong decision, well, one
should control his facial play, always.“
Voice of Ralph off-screen
„If we accept sometimes, both women and RF want to have recognised at this point the
man as me. Yes, I could question Madleine and Marianne and also RF, until I have got
out every insignificant detail, time waste and maybe also unnecessary excitement. The
type without name - the dark lord, stands neither who played him, nor why the facial
play was bad here. I have said sentences many, during every interview countless and
just so many were written down. She will have got something in the wrong neck.
Defiance of death of her quite remarkably, follows about everything and anything
whether everything is real, will still have to turn out.“
Voice of the writer of the screenplay off-screen
„He will ask himself at this point whether I could have possibly meant him, provided, he
would even read a line. However, this may never happen, promise it to me and it is no
loose gossip if I confess: I could see films with him either not yet, has seen different half,
only once, the enough one. I do not like crying men if they go for one in the reality on
the wick and in the film it may be the quite big final chord. Quite slowly I felt in myself
break something, simply in such a way, I have to be able to suffer the actor for his kind
or to have to go not only beloved. I hated him. Now even no explanation does not find
question me why, more."
NARRATOR
„Ralph slowly came along on a supplement notes. At least, he still played and he had fun
in the work, wanted to have also further. If she saw him so and hatred and love
perceived together possibly felt it also other in such a way, only he did not listen there
any more thus. He pulled through his thing, indeed with a timetable which only he knew
and he wanted to determine departure and arrival always alone. The suffering look?
When this had exactly begun, did he not know, nevertheless, himself any more, did
contradictory figures possibly interest him also because of her weaknesses and he had
felt embarrassed for no tear, at the beginning.? As far he had to decrease then if he
wanted to get out what other people about him thought."
Voice of the writer of the screenplay off-screen
„I have your question anyhow already in the ear, my love. The worldwide net also
supplied me richly with infos and although I for the man, (to whom I dedicate anyhow
the screenplay, thus as thanks for each of my tears or for my enthusiasm, my surprise
like he denied itself often, it seemed to me, in any case, thus) hatred and love, better no
love "only" admiration feels, I allowed to myself to look at the sides high and under it,
the young and older man, his voice, his facial play, his gesture. One virtually creeps in
such a person, understand properly. The jigsaw puzzle for what he planned sometimes
(film clip) flew only in such a way, afterwards I do not forget so fast: the old man helps
the sick person again in the house, so that can calm down there inside. If was thus the
only help which "spider" got, to me became uncanny expects.“
Ralph `s voice off-screen
„Finally, the hot track, so at least in "spider" I could be enough for her high claims, with
it my worth name might have excited her attention something. Whether the jigsaw puzzle
stood now in the screenplay or not, now is absolutely unimportant. Around sky will:
awfully, well, at least what.“
NARRATOR
„Ralph noticed very well how he recurred internally. Almost joy arose in him, even if
"spider" was to be looked not jocularly. Joy not, it was a black humor and just this
drove him to read further.“
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Publicado en e-Stories.org el 07.11.2009.
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